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tigriswolf) wrote2010-03-31 02:15 pm
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Title: the attempt to rise
Fandom: Supernatural
Notes: title, cut-text, and poem excerpt from Emily Dickinson
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pixel_0 for her birthday
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Three times, ‘tis said, a sinking man
Comes up to face the skies
His body is so weak. He can feel his heart slowing; soon, it’ll fail and he’ll die without ever seeing thirty, failing Dad and Sammy and Mama’s memory. He’s always wanted to go out fighting, saving someone. And he had, but Sam saved him just in time to suffer and shame their family name. No Winchester has ever been so weak as him in this hospital bed, barely able to breathe. Sam should have let him die in that basement.
(Death touches his face with a small sigh and whispers, Not yet, Dean Winchester.
He looks at his body, unable to breathe without mechanical interference, and he winces. Damn, that’s bad. He’d felt himself dying in the Impala’s backseat, Mama’s killer’s fingerprints burning on his heart. And to see this, to watch Dad and Sammy see this—it hurts. It hurts and he has no idea how to fix it.
(Death touches his face, smile gentle and hand cold, and whispers, You should come with me, Dean Winchester, but you won’t, not yet.)
Lilith smirks at him and kisses Sam, and the hounds are howling. Dean has never been so afraid, and he looks at Lilith, taunting Sam across the room. He’ll die for Sam. He’s got no problem with that. But he doesn’t want to go to Hell. He really really doesn’t want to go to Hell, and he doesn’t want to leave Sam alone, and it hurts so much, the hounds rip--
(Death holds out a hand. Your time has come, Dean Winchester. Death smiles and pulls him close. But we’ll meet again, because there is something so very special in store for you.)
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Thank you so much! This is very lovely and bittersweet, and I especially love the ending line, which has a bit of an ominous presence to it. :)
Thank you!
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Thanks for sharing this present with the rest of us!!
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