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I am... unsure how to react + update
May. 27th, 2011 11:50 amSo, I got this review for an anthology I've posted on ff.net; the anthology is all outside povs on the Winchesters. The review is as follows:
wow...alot of these are realy depressing... got any happy ones in the works or
is it gonna get worse? eather way its awesome just...moderate the angst when
you can. writting like this all the time...S'not good for a sound mind.
I really can't tell if s/he is being serious or not. Either way,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
tigris_lilsis and tigremere got a kick out of it. Beyond thanking s/he for reading, I'm not sure what to say. tigremere said to reply that I've got a paypal for my therapy bills.
Besides, there are some cute fics posted. And pure fluff.
Anyway.
Chris Colfer (Kurt from Glee) is on Piers Morgan tonight! But I'll be at a cousin's wedding, so the DVR had better work. I can't believe he's turning 21 today; I feel so old. I also can't believe I didn't start watching this show until a month ago.
The job search is ongoing. In the meantime, I've asked to volunteer for two more days, so I'll be a receptionist for two agencies at the same time four days a week. I've never been so acutely aware of how goddamned lucky I am before. Seriously.
(Backstory: last July, I started volunteering as a tutor/receptionist for Adult Literacy Advocates. Earlier this year, we moved a few streets down to the same building as the Christian Outreach Center, which works toward homeless prevention. I am effectively their secretary, as well, so I deal with a great many homeless people, or people about to be homeless, or people who very recently were homeless. And I feel somewhere between relieved and awful, because... just because.
Yesterday, a guy was trying to get a bus ticket to a nearby city so he can catch a train home. He has a house there, and family, and stuff, but for some reason he's been living on the streets here. He's a college graduate; used to teach, in fact. And he's struggling to get home. The bus ticket would've cost $20. I had over twice that in my wallet, but the director told me not to offer my own money, and the Center's hands were tied because of rules; there are very strict guidelines when giving out bus-passes, and this guy didn't meet them. It all worked out (he found a church that would pay), but I just felt so weird. Like I should have given him the money because I have a surplus, but at the same time it's not my problem, and what about everyone else walking through the doors in need of money? I don't have enough for them.
And I feel bad about it. I mean, I've never felt like we were struggling for money, even though for awhile we apparently were, but now we have more than enough, and my parents will never kick me out, and I am so goddamned lucky I just want to cry sometimes. And then I feel like a disapointment because I have no clue what to do with my life, and I've quit all three of the jobs I've had, and now I can't seem to find one, even though I graduated college a year ago with a 3.1... so.)
I deleted my tornado icon, even though it's actually a waterspout. What the fuck is up with the weather? Earthquakes, volcanoes, twisters... give me a goddamned hurricane. There are no surprises involved there. And there will probably be hurricanes this year. Hooray.
So, a very major river runs through my town. And it's been flirting with the tops of the levies. Making life interesting, actually; here's a parking lot I actually went to a couple weeks ago. Yes, that is the river. Yes, I could've touched it, if the parking attendant hadn't chased me andtigremere away.
Until the water goes down, a hurricane would be a very bad thing. And hurricane season starts next week.
So. Here's hoping.
wow...alot of these are realy depressing... got any happy ones in the works or
is it gonna get worse? eather way its awesome just...moderate the angst when
you can. writting like this all the time...S'not good for a sound mind.
I really can't tell if s/he is being serious or not. Either way,
tigris_lilsis and tigremere got a kick out of it. Beyond thanking s/he for reading, I'm not sure what to say. tigremere said to reply that I've got a paypal for my therapy bills.Besides, there are some cute fics posted. And pure fluff.
Anyway.
Chris Colfer (Kurt from Glee) is on Piers Morgan tonight! But I'll be at a cousin's wedding, so the DVR had better work. I can't believe he's turning 21 today; I feel so old. I also can't believe I didn't start watching this show until a month ago.
The job search is ongoing. In the meantime, I've asked to volunteer for two more days, so I'll be a receptionist for two agencies at the same time four days a week. I've never been so acutely aware of how goddamned lucky I am before. Seriously.
(Backstory: last July, I started volunteering as a tutor/receptionist for Adult Literacy Advocates. Earlier this year, we moved a few streets down to the same building as the Christian Outreach Center, which works toward homeless prevention. I am effectively their secretary, as well, so I deal with a great many homeless people, or people about to be homeless, or people who very recently were homeless. And I feel somewhere between relieved and awful, because... just because.
Yesterday, a guy was trying to get a bus ticket to a nearby city so he can catch a train home. He has a house there, and family, and stuff, but for some reason he's been living on the streets here. He's a college graduate; used to teach, in fact. And he's struggling to get home. The bus ticket would've cost $20. I had over twice that in my wallet, but the director told me not to offer my own money, and the Center's hands were tied because of rules; there are very strict guidelines when giving out bus-passes, and this guy didn't meet them. It all worked out (he found a church that would pay), but I just felt so weird. Like I should have given him the money because I have a surplus, but at the same time it's not my problem, and what about everyone else walking through the doors in need of money? I don't have enough for them.
And I feel bad about it. I mean, I've never felt like we were struggling for money, even though for awhile we apparently were, but now we have more than enough, and my parents will never kick me out, and I am so goddamned lucky I just want to cry sometimes. And then I feel like a disapointment because I have no clue what to do with my life, and I've quit all three of the jobs I've had, and now I can't seem to find one, even though I graduated college a year ago with a 3.1... so.)
I deleted my tornado icon, even though it's actually a waterspout. What the fuck is up with the weather? Earthquakes, volcanoes, twisters... give me a goddamned hurricane. There are no surprises involved there. And there will probably be hurricanes this year. Hooray.
So, a very major river runs through my town. And it's been flirting with the tops of the levies. Making life interesting, actually; here's a parking lot I actually went to a couple weeks ago. Yes, that is the river. Yes, I could've touched it, if the parking attendant hadn't chased me and
tigremere away. Until the water goes down, a hurricane would be a very bad thing. And hurricane season starts next week.
So. Here's hoping.