come let me hold you - SN drabble - PG

[tigriswolf]

 

Title: come let me hold you

Fandom: “Supernatural”

Disclaimer: not my characters; just for fun. Title from Patty Loveless.

Warnings: pre-series

Pairings: John/Mary

Rating: PG

Wordcount: 205

Point of view: third

 

                You’re so small, she thinks, staring down at her baby boy, nestled into her arms, wrapped up in a soft blue blanket. So small… so new. It’d be so easy to hurt him, to break him, and how could she have thought she was ready for this?

                John walks into the nursery, greasy from work, and smiles down at them. “How’s the big guy doin’?” he asks.

                She looks up at him, tears welling in her eyes. “Oh, babe,” he whispers, kneeling next to her. “Don’t do this again.”   His large, calloused hand cups her cheek, fingers caressing her skin. 

                She nuzzles into him, a small sob stuttering out. “I’m sorry, Johnny,” she says, looking back down at Dean. Two miscarriages and one stillborn little girl, and now she has a baby, a son, so tiny and fragile, and she could shatter him so easily—

                John sighs and leans in, kissing her forehead before moving down to her lips. “Everything will be fine, Mary. You’ll see.”

                She wants to believe him. He gently takes Dean from her and tells her to get some rest. With one last look at their boy, she goes. She doesn’t sleep, just lies in bed listening to John croon lullabies. 

 

Comments

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

Nicely done. Good job capturing a new mom's insecurities and fears.

Favorite lines:

It’d be so easy to hurt him, to break him, and how could she have thought she was ready for this?

I can totally identify with this. With my first baby, I remember how overwhelmed I was when I realized I was completely responsible for such a tiny life.

She doesn’t sleep, just lies in bed listening to John croon lullabies.

Lovely ending image. (And yay, John, for taking such good care of his wife and son.)

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[morganslady.livejournal.com]

Love how the new Mom is nervous, it's such a true emotion.

[wellew.livejournal.com]

another awesome one. poor mary sounds so tired.

[kerri-is-dead.livejournal.com]

This is lovely and very delicate.

[lark_ascends]

Beautifully done.

[bellasianna.livejournal.com]

Oh this is just beautiful. :)

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you so much!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[silverkit.livejournal.com]

Very lovely and sweet.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[layne67.livejournal.com]

I absolutely love this. And now I can't help but remember Mary in 'Home' apologizing to her boys.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you so much!

[sadelyrate.livejournal.com]

It’d be so easy to hurt him, to break him-
Methinks you didn't mean it like it, but the way I read this line at first was that Mary was wondering how effortless, really, it would be for her to take a newborn's life.

This ficlet has some potentially very dark allusions. But that's just me.

I applaud the mood you give this, the characterizations, the visuals. The whole history of Mary and John and all their babies...

Thank You.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!