*hates everything*
Aug. 11th, 2015 04:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
tigriswolfSo, I hurt my knee back in February, right? I turned on my left leg and I remember hearing something, though I don't recall if it was a rip or tear or pop. But it felt weird almost immediately and was painful later that afternoon.
I started driving to class instead of walking, made only short trips to stores, and waited for it to get better. Which it didn't. I eventually saw my GP and a rheumatologist (because my shit insurance wouldn't cover a single orthopedist in my town) and slowly, it started to get better, a little.
And then I reinjured it somehow. I didn't see another doctor but it again began getting better on its own, so. And then in June, it stopped hurting when I walked. Only hurt if I tried to bend it while sitting down, which is such an improvement, you have no idea.
AND THEN. And then I slipped and felt my knee stretch and guess what? That's fucking right. Reinjured again. SAME FUCKING KNEE.
But it didn't take as long to start feeling better. I still couldn't bend my knee while sitting but I wasn't limping anymore. Could walk around stores for a long time without feeling like my knee would collapse under me.
BUT GUESS WHAT. My fucking cat likes to get between my feet, right? And he did that a couple days ago. And I caught myself before I fell down by twisting around on my LEFT FUCKING KNEE and now it hurts in NEW AND INTERESTING WAYS it didn't before.
My knee is never going to heal. Never. Obviously it is just not to be. Fuck. I was looking forward to walking to class this semester. And I'll have to, because one of my classes is at 12:30 so the gates are down, there's nowhere to park on campus.
I am so tired of my knee hurting. And why is it my left side? It's always my left side. Sprained that ankle three times. And now my fucking knee. (I did have tendonitis on my right knee a few years ago. I miss the tendonitis because I knew how to handle that. And IT WENT AWAY.
I should've just let myself fall. Fuck.
I started driving to class instead of walking, made only short trips to stores, and waited for it to get better. Which it didn't. I eventually saw my GP and a rheumatologist (because my shit insurance wouldn't cover a single orthopedist in my town) and slowly, it started to get better, a little.
And then I reinjured it somehow. I didn't see another doctor but it again began getting better on its own, so. And then in June, it stopped hurting when I walked. Only hurt if I tried to bend it while sitting down, which is such an improvement, you have no idea.
AND THEN. And then I slipped and felt my knee stretch and guess what? That's fucking right. Reinjured again. SAME FUCKING KNEE.
But it didn't take as long to start feeling better. I still couldn't bend my knee while sitting but I wasn't limping anymore. Could walk around stores for a long time without feeling like my knee would collapse under me.
BUT GUESS WHAT. My fucking cat likes to get between my feet, right? And he did that a couple days ago. And I caught myself before I fell down by twisting around on my LEFT FUCKING KNEE and now it hurts in NEW AND INTERESTING WAYS it didn't before.
My knee is never going to heal. Never. Obviously it is just not to be. Fuck. I was looking forward to walking to class this semester. And I'll have to, because one of my classes is at 12:30 so the gates are down, there's nowhere to park on campus.
I am so tired of my knee hurting. And why is it my left side? It's always my left side. Sprained that ankle three times. And now my fucking knee. (I did have tendonitis on my right knee a few years ago. I miss the tendonitis because I knew how to handle that. And IT WENT AWAY.
I should've just let myself fall. Fuck.