Robin's Egg Blue - SN fic - PG13

[tigriswolf]

Title: Robin's Egg Blue
Fandom: "Supernatural"
Disclaimer: Dean and Sammy aren't mine.
Warnings: um... spoilers for Sam's death-visions
Pairings: none intended
Rating: PG13
Wordcount: 580
Point of view: third
Notes: I have no explanation for this.  None whatsoever.

            Dean’s soul bleeds robin’s egg blue. If Sam were in the mood to find anything funny, he might laugh forever. But he’s not. So he doesn’t. Instead, he watches with horror as all that is Dean continues to pour out the cuts on his spirit.

            Sam wishes he had a band-aid big enough, strong enough, but he knows Dean’s been bleeding for a while now.

            Sam wishes he could wave a magic wand and heal all of Dean’s hurt, return some of the happiness he knows died with Mom, just… fix things.

            And Dean’s soul keeps bleeding because Dean can’t hear him say he’s not leaving anymore. He’s said it every way he knows how, but Dean’s been burned and his guard’s up and Sam’s words fall on deaf ears.

            Robin’s egg blue? The fuck?

            He wonders if Dean knows. Wonders if Dean’ll ever heal, even if he can. 

            Sometimes he wants to tell Dean—Hey, man, your soul’s leaking all over the place, you know? Could you maybe work on that?

            So he tries to soothe Dean’s fears without it being obvious—or noticeable at all, really—, tries to show Dean he meant what he said—he’s not leaving. This is his life now, the hunt and the chase and the blood and Dean.

            And it isn’t that he doesn’t have any other options, because they both know he does. He could walk away, return to school, and live.

            It’d be easy. Far easier than this. 

            But he’s not leaving. Not even if Dean pushes him away. 

But Dean won’t hear him and continues to bleed, leaking his essence all over the place, staining everything that shade of blue, and Sam knows something has to be done. Dean’s wide open for anything that wants in, and that just won’t do.

So he decides to make himself bleed, as well; his pain is the only thing that always catches Dean’s attention. Instead of fighting his nightmares, he starts to sink into them. 

And it hurts, but by the time Dean notices, it’s become habit. Habits aren’t supposed to form so quickly, it hasn’t even been four days, and he’s sluggish, drained.

Dean asks but Sam can’t explain—that’d ruin everything.

He wonders what color his soul’s bleeding, and Dean brushes his hair off his clammy forehead as he says, “Coral.”

Both their eyes widen, weary hazel meeting worn-out green.

“Coral?” Sam scoffs with a nearly forced laugh, and Dean almost smiles. They lean together, supporting each other, and Sam rests his chin on Dean’s head.

“What about me?” Dean asks quietly.

“Robin’s egg blue,” Sam answers.

Dean sighs and pulls away, looks up into Sam’s eyes, bright for the first time in a week. “What’s happening?” Dean whispers. “Seeing each other’s souls?”

Sam shrugs. “Sure ain’t normal.” His lips quirk in a near-smile and he says, “But since when have we been normal?”
            It’s the closest he can come, but Dean understands. Dean always understands.

“So, can bleeding souls possibly be good?” Dean muses, standing and stretching.

“I doubt it,” Sam responds, also rising. He yawns and Dean gently shoves him back on the bed.

“Sleep, Sammy,” he admonishes. “I know what you’ve been doing the last few days.”

Sam doesn’t even try the puppy-dog look, the innocent eyes, or pouting, just sinks back with a sigh of relief.

“Coral,” Dean laughs softly. “Robin’s egg blue. Can’t believe it.”

He lies down on the other bed and stares at the ceiling.

 

Comments

[amphetamine-47.livejournal.com]

Yikes, perfectly painful.

Hey, man, your soul’s leaking all over the place, you know? Could you maybe work on that? especially got me. I could just HEAR Sammy saying it.

[bubblesbrnaid]

You know, the best things sometimes just don't *need* explanations.

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

I haven't read this yet because I want to make sure it's not spoilery for the rest of the season. I couldn't quite tell from your spoiler warning. (I'm really tired right now, so it's very possible I'm being dense.) Is it safe to read if I'm going spoiler-free the rest of the season?

[bionic.livejournal.com]

I love the way your mind works. Beautiful.

[lucywiggin.livejournal.com]

First of all, awwww. Second, have I mentioned how much I love your Super!Dean?

“Sleep, Sammy,” he admonishes. “I know what you’ve been doing the last few days.”

Go Sammy!

[noirbabalon.livejournal.com]

This was gorgeous...absolutely freaking gorgeous...in all the bruised colours that echo the boys pain...

Thank you!

[sadelyrate.livejournal.com]

I liked this.

My perverted mind aside, I liked this. Poor, poor broken boys...
Though I have to admit that Sam wishing he could wave a magic wand to heal Dean had me laughing out loud...but that's just probably all the wincest talking. ;)

Snippets flashing out of the blue are the best.
Without a doubt.

Robin's egg blue and Coral. Of course. Now I can't help but wonder what colour John bled...

[tru-faith-lost.livejournal.com]

This is just perfect darlin, well except for the part where he goes back to his own be, lol. I love stories where they're so in tuned to each other that they don't need words. The 'let's talk about it and hug' fics get on my nerves after about the first episode tag, ya know?

Again, perfect, but what else would it be?

Tracy

[zeffy-amethyst.livejournal.com]

Made little sense but that's the best part about it. There's this strange little cosy feel to it, like they have something that we are very privileged to be allowe to look upon. Seriously cute.

[tigriswolf]

Totally. I wrote it back in November.

Myself, I don't do spoilers. No idea what's coming. And I'll be dead afterwards.

I love my boys.

[feline-fury1.livejournal.com]

You got me with this one. Dean? Robin's egg BLUE?

WTF?

He's such a girl! Well, at least you didn't kill him in this one!

*Adds to memories*

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

I shall read it, then!

And I'm usually a spoiler whore, so this whole resisting spoilers business is hard!

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

So he decides to make himself bleed, as well; his pain is the only thing that always catches Dean’s attention. Instead of fighting his nightmares, he starts to sink into them.

Oh, Sam. But of course he'd do that to reach Dean.

You wrote their angst in such a creative, lovely way here. I really like how you used the colors, and the ending made me happy, as there's some hope for them both now that Dean's interacting with Sam better.

Very nicely done!

[montisello.livejournal.com]

So, like, when the maid cleaned up the motel rooms afterward, did the robin's egg blue and the coral come out of the sheets?

I like it when things don't really make sense, just shiny pretty words painting the boys into lovely corners and angst.

[montisello.livejournal.com]

Well, since we're keeping to easter egg colors, I pick lavender. But it is tigris' universe, so she should get to pick.

[smilla02.livejournal.com]

Stunning. Creative. Aching.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Too true.

Thanks for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Thank _you_ for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Hmm... a color for John? Well, I guess lavender works. Purple's my favorit color, but back when I wrote this(November, if not earlier) robin's egg blue screamed at me for Dean's color, so *shrugs*

Thank you for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Wincest? What's that? *innocent eyes*

And thank you for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Oh, *blushes*

Thank you so much!

[tigriswolf]

What d'ya mean, made no sense? *pouts*

Yeah, hasn't made sense since I wrote it, but, oh, well. Nothin' to be done for it. *shrugs*

Thanks for readin'!

[tigriswolf]

Are you implyin' I kill him a lot or somethin'?

*snickers*

Thanks for reading!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you so much!

[tigriswolf]

Thank you so much!

[tigriswolf]

*blushes*

Thankees!

[digitalwave]

Sweetie,

There is always such poetry to your words. Thank you for sharing them with us. :)

[tigriswolf]

Thank _you_ for reading them!

[zeffy-amethyst.livejournal.com]

It doesn't make any logical sense I think I meant. I don't know what I mean anymore. ^_^;;

Still pretty though.

[belleimani.livejournal.com]

Wow that's beautful and very sad.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[belleimani.livejournal.com]

You're welcome!

[feline-fury1.livejournal.com]

Well, hanging around Jake and Sam didn't exactly extend the poor boy's life expectancy!

And you do have a tag entitled "dead dean".

[tigriswolf]

*giggles*

[feline-fury1.livejournal.com]

See, I knew it!

[tigriswolf]

Oh, that icon! Is it a reference to the poem?