screaming loud enough to turn back the wind

Title: more heaven than a heart could hold
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters
Warnings: pre-Cap 1 to post-Cap 2. Talk of health issues, war issues, torture, violence, death
Pairings: Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 1290
Point of view: third
Prompt: Any, any, a heart so big, God wouldn't let it live...



( Bucky knew that Steve was gonna die young. )

Okay, so, I’m in a class this semester where one of the required assignments is seven snapshots about our lives. They can be anything as long as they’re autobiographical. So far I’ve written about my favorite book, that time I wrote a screenplay in Chemistry, and constructional apraxia. There are four left and in class last night, we were to all consider what’s in our list and finalize the decision. My list includes: meeting Jensen Ackles, the dizzy virus, a snowball fight in Nebraska, that time I realized I was depressed, one of my observations for my thesis, and a truly sad moment when I realized I had no grandparents. Thing is, I can only have four and except for meeting Jensen Ackles, the rest are pretty sad, and the dizzy virus would be hard to write about.

Anyway, the point of this: while a couple of people recognized his name, no one in the class actually knew who Jensen Ackles was. So I googled him on my phone and then passed it around.

So, last night, I was in a pretty bad mood, okay? I hurt my knee almost a month ago and it’s been steadily getting worse instead of better and yesterday, while trying to find a doctor, it seemed that neither of the orthopedic clinics in town take my insurance. I also got my period so I had a headache and cramps, and then there was nowhere to park, I was late to class, and it was drizzling. Okay? I just wanted to burn everything down and settle somewhere in the ashes to cry.

But. I passed my phone around with pictures of Jensen Ackles and it was hilarious because each one of them looked at my phone and either gaped or said something along of the lines, “Damn, he’s fine.” I laughed so hard, it was amazing. My knee still hurt (god, it hurts so much) but everything else seemed better.

I’ve decided that meeting him is the next snapshot, and one of my classmates really wants to hear about the snowball fight in Nebraska, and I’m gonna for sure write about the realization of depression (because that was a turning point in my life), but I’m still not positive what the seventh snapshot will be. Either the dizzy virus (because I do think I have a handle on how to start that) or that observation, because it was a powerful moment about how amazing and heartrending the ability to read can be.

Anyway. I just. All of them (seven women all well-educated) looked at pictures of Jensen Ackles and gaped. I loved it.

Title: let's go break the law just one more time
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Leverage
Warnings: references to violence
Pairings: Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes, Pepper Potts/Tony Stark/James Rhodes, Peggy Carter/Gabe Jones, Natasha Romanova/Clint Barton, Alexander Pierce/Bucky Barnes
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 14000
Point of view: third
Prompts: vary with each chapter


“Hey, babe,” Bucky says into the phone, trying to smile, “remember that favor I was doin’ Potts, was gonna be the last job before I retired?”

Steve sighs heavily. “Yeah, Buck, I remember.”

“Well, see, Hammer tried to kill us instead’a payin’ us, so…” He lets it hang there for a moment and instead of saving him from the awkwardness, Steve waits him out. “We need a thief, Stevie. They were kickin’ around names and, well. You’re the best.”


Yes, this is a Leverage AU.

Title: music you’ve never heard
Fandom: Political Animals/Highlander
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Anne Sexton
Warnings: references to addiction, panic, possibly implied past dub-con, suicidal implications
Pairings: past Methos/Kronos
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 2300
Prompts: any, any, sooner or later god's gonna cut you down ; any, any, Not all those who wander are lost ; any, any, "given the right motivation i probably could" ; any. any. one day at a time
Note: I don’t believe in that whole immortals-are-always-foundlings thing.


"You're lucky I was passing through," the man says as soon as TJ's awake.

Title: love is where yesterday is
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Anne Sexton
Warnings: violence/death/everything implied by the existence of an ex-Winter Soldier
Pairings: implied past-Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 1215
Point of view: third
Prompt: It doesn't take Steve and Sam all that long to find Bucky. Mostly, because when they do find him, he's catatonic. Breathing and occasionally blinking, but nothing else. (Why, when, and where up to author.)

Steve...well, Steve doesn't handle this so well.

Bucky may not be able to be angry about what he's suffered at Hydra's hands, but Steve figures he's got enough anger for the both of them. So, he leaves Bucky in Bruce and Sam's capable hands and heads out.

This time, he takes no prisoners.

And after each mission, Steve makes sure to come back and resume his vigil at Bucky's bedside, and describes in great detail how many agents were still in the building when he collapsed it, who he killed personally because he saw their name in the Winter Soldier file, how many fewer people there are in the world who can ever hurt Bucky again.



“Cap, we could use your help,” Fury says.

“Please, come in,” Coulson requests.

“Hey, your boy smiled today,” Sam reports.

Steve speeds up the takedown and goes home to New York.

Title: Surfactant
Disclaimer: not my characters
Warnings: everything the presence of post-WS Bucky implies including references to past non-con
Pairings: past-Steve/Bucky and future-Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 1235
Point of view: second
Prompt: Steve/Bucky, Bucky turning tricks for medicine money

During a routine Avengers get-together someone starts how did I lose my virginity? game. Bucky, whose memory is still spotty and largely bereft of context, volunteers it was in the early 1930s, to a guy called Jeremy. Because Sam instilled a therapy policy to let him talk, react to nothing, and ask innocuous follow-up questions, they learn it was January, in a back alley, and he got money for it, which he used to buy medicine.

Steve reacts poorly, but tries to hold it together.



Sometimes, Steve's team has "bonding rituals" and the weapon-trying-to-be-a-man joins in. This night, the "bonding ritual" involves alcohol and stories of first time sexual contact.

Title: I am the child I was
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Anne Sexton
Warnings: references to the Winter Soldier’s backstory; some grief/guilt
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Point of view: third
Wordcount: WIP
Prompts: Any/Any Coming of age. I want to see what happens if one of the avengers is deaged and they have to grow up. Not magic cure. ; Any, any, You obviously don't understand the level of insane I operate at (203) ; any, any, It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything. ; Any, any, white lies and black lies


The ex-Winter Soldier is regressed to Bucky Barnes, aged 12. It can't be reversed.

Title: The integrity of your revolution
Fandom: Once Upon a Time
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Denise Levertov
Warnings: violence, death, implied rape, AU during season 1
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: WIP
Point of view: third
Prompts: Any, any, Oh me, oh my, you make me sigh, you're such a good lookin' _____ Joe Dolan, Good Lookin' Woman ; author's choice, author's choice, end of torture means having nothing left to take away ; any, any, "You're going pay for this!" ; Author's choice, author's choice, "The air in your lungs, the blood in your veins, the steel in your spine, the fire in your eyes." ; Once Upon A Time, Jefferson, death doesn't fear him

“And what makes you think I won’t kill you after everything you’ve done?” he asks.

Title: It was not by their sword that they won the land
Disclaimer: the ex-Winter Soldier and Captain America aren’t mine
Warnings: references to the Winter Soldier’s experiences at Hydra
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 2820
Point of view: third
Prompts: Avengers movieverse, Bucky Barnes, "I was born twice." Bucky having to learn the most simplest, basic things all over again. [Jeffrey Eugenides, Middlesex] ; Avengers Universe, Bucky Barnes, children love him. He has no idea why.

Note: in real life, I do not condone little girls hanging out with strange men in parks. Not at all. Please don’t do it.

The man in the park is sad, and Fatima doesn’t like it when people are sad. And today’s the day she’s determined to meet him.

Title: This earth I rise from
Fandom: Cinderella
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Sylvia Plath
Warnings: character death; AU
Pairings: Cinderella/the prince
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 700
Point of view: third
Prompt: author's choice, author's choice, beware the anger of a patient man


( When she is older and wiser, Jocelyn will know the signs of a curse. )


Title: from dust I have sprung
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Lord Byron
Warnings: post-Cap2. talk of brainwashing/torture/death.
Pairings: implied pre and post-Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 505
Point of view: third
Prompt: Any, any, I brought some marshmallows. Let's burn this world down


( He finds Bucky in one of Hydra's training facilities, staring at one of those goddamned chairs surrounded by dead and dying Hydra agents. )



Title: seal the hushed casket of my soul
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Keats
Warnings: Post-Cap2. talk of torture/brainwashing/death
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 290
Point of view: third
Prompt: any, any, Judge if you want. / We are all going to die. / I intend to deserve it.


( They took a decent man, stripped him of everything but the skills hard-won in war, poured in intel and frost, taught him to obey, and then unleashed him on their enemies. )



Title: I want to be there when the desert blooms
Fandom: Marvel movies
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Matilyn Singer
Warnings: references to everything in the Winter Soldier’s backstory
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 335
Point of view: third
Prompt: author's choice, author's choice, "I'll not be your weapon."


( He's sitting on Steve's bed, feet firm on the floor, a knife on either side of him and a gun in his flesh hand. )



Title: brothers
Fandom: Charmed
Warnings: unchanged future
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 120
Point of view: third
Prompt: Charmed, Wyatt & Chris, First time Wyatt is protective of the new baby brother



( Big brothers protect little brothers. )