Not Made To - DA fic - PG13

[tigriswolf]

Title: Not Made To
Fandom: Dark Angel
Disclaimer:  Not my characters. Just for fun. 
Warnings: spoilers for everything
Pairings: none stated
Rating: PG-13
Wordcount: 159
Point of view: first

I was not made to regret. 

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The day after the traitors fled Manticore, I was pulled into a cell and tortured for six months straight. 

For ten years I did not know why. 

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 I was not made to hope. 

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The day I fucked-up my first major mission, I was pulled into a cell and tortured for three days, then they shoved me in the basement and abandoned me for five weeks.

For two years I couldn’t remember why. 

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I wasn’t made to love. 

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The day I discovered I could regret, I had her blood on my hands and tears in my eyes.

The day I discovered I could hope, I stepped into a warm sunrise and realized I never had to return to the darkness. 

The day I discovered I could love, I lost the chance forever. 

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I was not made for happiness. For some reason, that’s the only thing I cannot feel.