Lullaby for Cain - SN fic - PG13

[tigriswolf]

 Title: Lullaby for Cain
Fandom: "Supernatural"
Disclaimer: Not my characters. Lyrics are “Cain’s Mother: A Lullaby” from The Talented Mr. Ripley soundtrack. Just for fun. 
Warnings: AU; spoilers for pilot and “Home”
Pairings: Mary/John 
Rating: PG-13
Notes: “Megan” is a reference to “Meg”, yeah. Make of this what you will. Ask a question if you feel the need or desire.
Wordcount: 654
Point of view: third

From the silence, from the night
Comes a distant lullaby.

Mary never had a chance, and only looking back after her death does she realize it.

Her sister had fallen, and her brother, and finally her mother—it was in her blood, the weakness and the curse. It was in her blood and tissue, deep in her bones. She’d thought she could escape it by fleeing to John, thought the innocence in his skin could save her from the experience of hers.

She’d been wrong.

Cry, remember that first cry,
Your brother's standing by,
And lot of loved
Beloved sons of mine.

Danielle and Cade told her she wouldn’t make it, that she couldn’t—they were who they were, what they were, and it could not be outrun, could not be left behind.

“You’ll only bring pain upon him,” Mother whispered on the air her wedding night. “You’ll only bring him grief.”

Mary didn’t listen, refused to—she would escape.

Sing a lullaby.
Mother is close by.
Innocent days
Such innocent eyes
And he stole your brother's life,
Came home murdered, peace of mind.

Dean entered the world, a beacon of triumph, and Mary knew she’d succeeded. Nothing still in thrall of the dark could shine so brightly. His blood was pure, as was John’s—the darkness of Mary had been eradicated in this little boy.

Mary looked into his hazel eyes and saw herself on his fourth birthday. Saw the knowledge and the sacrifice and the curse—

That night she sobbed in John’s arms and the next day told him she was pregnant.

“What did I say, daughter?” her mother’s voice asked. “What did I swear would happen?”

"I know," she answered, and pulled Dean close.

Left you nightmares on the pillow.
Sleep now

Sam’s eyes were turning green, something Mary rejoiced. John had brown eyes, innocent doe eyes; Dean had her own haunted hazel. Everyone in her family had hazel, everyone who was cursed, and only her younger sister Megan had escaped—

“Mommy,” Dean asked the night of Sam’s six-month birthday, “do dreams come true?”

“Some of them,” she said softly. “What did you dream?”

“I don’t like fire anymore,” was all he said, but she understood.

Soul, surrendering your soul,
The heart in you not whole
For love, but love walked on

"Daughter, you are better than this!" her mother's voice screamed as she ran up the stairs.  "Accept what is in your blood!  Embrace it!  He is only a demon!"

Only a demon. Only a demon. Only a demon.

Mary knew those three words would echo in her son’s head for years to come.

She fought and died as a human. Her son would fight and die as something more.

Maybe he had more love than she did.

Cast into the dawn
Branded with the mark.
Oh, shame of Cain.

John never did understand. Sam never could, even if he did channel Dean’s visions.

Sometimes, Mary would visit Dean in his sleep, would explain something to him.

When he was ten he asked, “Are we evil?”

She answered, “Do you think we are?” which told him everything he needed to know.

From a garden of those light
To a wilderness of night.

Mary thought she could escape her destiny by marrying a man. Thought she could escape the darkness of her blood.

Dean knew he never could and one day he’d embrace it. Until then, he had Sam to keep all the demons at bay. Sam who didn’t know and never would; Sam who thought he’d been the chosen one.

Sam who was purer than Dean'd ever been.

Sleep now

“You’re just like your daddy,” Missouri told Sam, patting his cheek, smiling into his dark green eyes. “Just like him.”

She spared barely a glance at Dean, who only smiled, knowledge peering from behind his hazel eyes.

Bitch, he thought, knowing she heard.  Mom never did like you.

Sleep now 

 

 

 

Comments

[kerri-is-dead.livejournal.com]

Wow, this is a fantastic AU. I love it. It all fits together perfectly. Mem'd :D

[tigriswolf]

Thank you so much!