Decomposition of a Soul - SN fic - PG13

[tigriswolf]

Title: Decomposition of a Soul
Fandom: "Supernatural"
Disclaimer: not my characters.  just for fun.
Warnings: none
Pairings: none
Rating: PG13
Wordcount: 280
Point of view: third
Notes: This is completely oddball.  And completely experimental.

 

When the hero falls, there's supposed to be something.  Anything.

Not silence and muted grief.

-

When the hero falls...

--silence--

forgive me

--Ican't--

-

And the sun keeps on shining. Birds are singing. Clouds float merrily on their way and the bells in the church keep ringing, sounding out the time and shouldn't everything be over?

He's gone. The world should be dead.

But it's not.

It's not.

-

He was the hero. Him. Selfless. Noble. Honorable and good and all that epic hero shit that he'd deny till the day he--

Till the day he--

He died.

-

His body. Body. Corspe. Cold and unmoving and eyes that still stared but saw nothing. Nothing. Eyes that said nothing.

He lay still. Stiller than he'd ever been before. The stillness of a tomb. An unmarked grave forever forgotten.

But he won't be forgotten.

Nor will he be forgiven.

-

When the hero falls, everything is over. The villain wins. It isn't right and it isn't fair--but, in the end, maybe that was the only way it could ever have really gone.

-

--silence--

forgive me

--Ican't--

please

--never--

-

When the hero falls, it's only right his brother rises alone and becomes the thing he's always fought.

When the hero's way fails, it's only right his brother turns to the other side for vengeance.

When the hero dies, it's only right that everything that was right becomes wrong.

When the hero dies, it's only right his brother realizes their crusade is useless and the only way to defeat the dark is to--

-

forgive me

--never--

-

--embrace it.

Comments

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

Very hurty. If one of the boys lost the other, he really would suffer horribly and have a serious struggle with the darkness. *hugs them*

[tigriswolf]

I find myself saying(okay, _typing_) this a lot, but they really _do_ need some good, strong bear hugs. And cookies and brownies and milk and--

Ahem.

Thank you for reading!

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

It must be really overwhelming, if you think about it. They don't really explore this on the show (it's more of something they just SHOW), but Dean is SO dependent on Sam it's a little scary.

And hot chocolate. I think they need hot chocolate, too. And snuggles. Snuggles with the fanfic writers who care about their angst. In a nice, warm bed with a thick comforter. *runs off to faciliate everything*

[tigriswolf]

Hot chocolate! And cheesecake. And snuggling is good. *nods*

[skyebanshee.livejournal.com]

I think I also love the fact that you don't know which brother is which....that both of them could turn because of the grief and the loss and the sheer unfairness (is that a word?) of losing the other.

And damn they'd be scary sons of bitches if they went to the darkness *shivers*.

I also echo their need for hot chocolate, and snuggles, and brownies and gingerbread cookies. Lately, I've found gingerbread cookies can make everything a little bit better.

Thanks for sharing it (and thanks to my laptop for being a little less evil and letting me READ this and not go kapluey like it's done more recently *_*)

[tigriswolf]

I just got a laptop! I named it Sam. Alas, it doesn't have wireless yet.

Thank you for reading! I really want an ep where they both go evil.

[skyebanshee.livejournal.com]

Congrats to you and Sam...I'm currently piggybacking off of someone else's wireless (what can I say, I'm a poor grad student :P), so every once in a while it gets ornery and refuses to work *_*. I have yet to name my laptop, I'm coming up blank with ideas *_*.

Maybe if we get enough people to post their wishes for a boys-go-evil episode on various websites/boards, Kripke is bound to see it...the stalker-fangirl that is he...?

[tigriswolf]

The main computer is named Dean. What? Why are you looking at me like that?

I betcha Kripke and his various writers already know we'd like an evil Dean _and_ Sam episode. He probably already has it written. He's just waiting...

The bastard.

[skyebanshee.livejournal.com]

So all you need now is a third computer named John? Unless you're strictly a brothers-type-fan?

When I went in to a get a new battery for my laptop, the guy at Best Buy gave me the strangest look when he saw my desktop image (http://i27.photobucket.com/albums/c183/SkyeBanshee/Brothers2.png). I was instantly ready to go into my "Defend the Winchesters" mode, it's sad that I have a title for that.

The bastard.

You know, I think the SPN fandom has created the unique blend of frustration/admiration/love/irritation that goes into the way we say those two words. And I'm sure it makes him incredibly happy that we do.

[tigriswolf]

Oh, yeah he's _totally_ happy. I really need to make him cookies and mail them to him.

That is a _nice_ desktop. Mine is that promo shot of Jensen facing away from the camera but looking at it, in that awesome half-trench.

Surely, you know what I'm talking about?

[skyebanshee.livejournal.com]

Maybe we could mail him gingerbread cookies? Like I said, they make the world a better place.

And I definitely know the shot...and now I have to take a minute and let my heart rate go back to normal. That boy's prettiness is hazardous to my health *_*.

[tigriswolf]

That boy's prettiness is hazardous to the Earth's rotation.

You bake Kripke gingerbread, I'll bake peanut butter.

[tsuki-no-bara.livejournal.com]

i read this as dean being dead and sam turning to the dark side in vengeance, but skyebanshee's right, it could be either one. i really like But he won't be forgotten. Nor will he be forgiven. and there's a teeny bit of ambiguity at the end - the only way to defeat the dark is to--
forgive me
--never--
--embrace it

which could be the only way to defeat the dark is to never embrace it, or "forgive me - never." which i also really really like.

[tigriswolf]

I wrote it as Dean being dead.

At the end, I was going to keep the final line as --never--, answering the plea for forgivness. Then I added the 'embrace it' bit, completing the sentence about defeating the dark.

I seem to like leaving things up to the reader.

Thank you for reading!

[taniapretender.livejournal.com]

OMG you just made a big black, hole into my heart.
Please God, Don't ever let the show take that direction, I'd die from it.

Anyway, was soo sad ! I loved it

[tigriswolf]

If the show went this way, I'd spend a year in mourning.

Thank you for reading!

[sarlev-vanisa.livejournal.com]

I read this several times and each time hurt, this was good, I liked it. I didn't think I really understood but looking at other comments, not knowing which brother your talking about is a good point in this, not knowing exactly which one will have to embrace the dark, makes it even more sad.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading! I was in a very interesting mood when I wrote this