Everything Else - SN fic - PG13

[tigriswolf]

Title: Everything Else

Fandom: “Supernatural”

Disclaimer: not my characters. Just for fun.

Warnings: spoilers for “Hunted”

Pairings: nada

Rating: PG13

Wordcount: 480
Point of view: third and dialogue

 

 

You’ve got to kill me, Dean. Please. It’s the only option left.

No, Sam. No. That’s not an option at all.

 

                Dean sometimes wonders if Dad really expected him to do it. Honestly believed he could. Dad should have known better—hell, Dad did know better. Because when Dean thinks back, when Dad pulled away, eyes shining with sadness and love and those tears he couldn’t cry, not in front of the son he was going to die for, when he smiled that aching smile down at Dean, his eyes also said, Just try. I know you can’t. But you have to try.

                Dean could never try. Not that. And Dad knew it.  

                But still asked because there was nothing else to do.

 

C’mon, man. It’s—

Not happening. Ever.

You think you can keep me from doing it myself?

… yes.

 

                Anything Dad ever asked of him, Dean did. Tried his damnedest and succeeded, nearly every time. And he never asked why. He knew.

                Their survival meant listening to Dad without hesitation. Without quarrel. Sam’s life hung in the balance of Dean doing as Dad said. And anything that could cost Sam his life—well, Dean wouldn’t blink.

 

You couldn’t, Dean.

I’ll die trying.

No. No, Dean. This—

Not gonna happen. You ain’t gonna be that bastard’s pawn and you ain’t dying.

It’s not that simple.

Yeah, it is.

 

                Anything Dad ever asked. Any order Dad ever gave. Dean never paused, never hesitated, never disobeyed, except that one time and he took that lesson to heart.

                Dad knew it, Sam knew it, Dean knew it. Dad gave an order, Dean obeyed. It was as dependable as the sun rising, as the Earth rotating, as gravity working.

                So when Dad told Dean to save Sam, and if that failed, to kill him—Dad knew what he was saying. What burden he was laying across Dean’s shoulders, on Dean’s soul. He couldn’t help but know. Dean has no doubt of that.

                But Dad also knew that this was one order Dean could never, ever obey.

 

Dean—

Sam. Listen. It’s not happenin’.

You don’t know that.

Yeah, I do.

How?

 

                And the fact that Dad still told him to—to—

                That Dad even considered—

                That Dad could think—

                Well.

 

I just… do.

That’s not good enough. 

Well, it’ll have to do. Okay? ‘cause you ain’t killin’ yourself, and I sure as hell ain’t doing it.

Dean…

No. No.

But what if—

No.

 

                Dean can’t kill Sam. No matter what else happens, no matter what Sam becomes, no matter what Sam does—Sam is Sam. And that’s it. End of story.

 

Dean—

No.

 

                Dad told him, but Dad already knew what the answer would be. Dad already knew where Dean stood on the subject of Sam—Dad had fashioned him, moulded him, taught him—

                Sam first. Everything else… after.

                No matter what that everything else might be.

 

 

Comments

[skyebanshee.livejournal.com]

I loved the repetition, loved the idea that was continually threaded throughout this. Loved that in the dialogue, Dean was adament and nothing, not even Sam himself, could change his mind.

Sam first. Everything else… after.
No matter what that everything else might be.

That last line...powerful in its simplicity.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[buffyaddict13.livejournal.com]

*blubbers like a baby*

waaaah! this was beautiful and sad. i loved the formatting and going back and forth between sam and dean, and dean's thoughts.

absolutely lovely.

thank you.

[tigriswolf]

Thank _you_ for reading!

[iamstealthyone.livejournal.com]

Great job on this ficlet. I love Dean’s unwavering loyalty throughout this. Yeah, he loves John, obeyed John almost every time, but Sam trumps John.

Favorite lines:

You think you can keep me from doing it myself?
… yes.

I adore this, because of course Sam would consider killing himself, and of course Dean would do everything to stop that.

Sam first. Everything else… after.
No matter what that everything else might be.

Love, love, love those closing lines and how Dean’s devotion to Sam shines through.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

I really like those two lines, too.

[eloise-bright.livejournal.com]

That's just so Dean. And I love that Dad knew, that this one time he knew Dean would disobey.

I love the Prime Directive, and how it overrides all other orders. "Watch out for Sammy".

Lovely writing.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[smilla02.livejournal.com]

I *adore* the format of this, it's effective and has sort of a frantic mood, if it makes sense.

when he smiled that aching smile down at Dean, his eyes also said, Just try. I know you can’t

and this is just brilliant characterization you have here. Brilliant!

[tigriswolf]

Oh, thank you! *blushes*

[trinity_clare]

Those last two lines are perfect, and exactly what I want canon to explore now. You just summed up in those two little lines everything that is scary about Dean and Sam's relationship.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading!

[lark_ascends]

Gorgeous. The way you've threaded the conversation throughout the story is perfect.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[ewanspotter.livejournal.com]

Those last few lines... man, oh, man. Excellent, excellent job.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[kimonkey7.livejournal.com]

Sam first. Everything else… after. No matter what that everything else might be.

Ouch...

But oh, so beautiful. Thanks.

[tigriswolf]

Thank you.

[a-phoenixdragon.livejournal.com]

Damn right!! and omg yum!!

Freaking awesome!! This one stumped me too - to spend his whole life saving Sam, raising Sam - and then to do that?! Grrrrr...

Marvelous, dear!

*Hugs*

[tigriswolf]

Thank you for reading! I'm glad you enjoyed it.

[kalyw.livejournal.com]

Very nice - especially love the last three lines. :)

[tigriswolf]

Thank you!

[ultraviolet9a.livejournal.com]

Last line...whoa. Creepy. For me. Well done.

(ps is it your birthday tomorrow?)

[tigriswolf]

Yep. Actually, the instant between 11:59 and 12:00 on the clock, but I'm calling it March 1 so that JA and I can share a birthday.

Thank you for reading!