beginning madness with a smile

[tigriswolf]

Before “Supernatural” I’d never really had an obsession.

Sure, I went through the “Buffy” phase, the “Digimon” phase, and the “Charmed” phase—but none went as deep, as complete as “Supernatural.”

I decided, based upon the promos, to watch the pilot when it premiered. I did, turning the lamp(I always have as many lights off as possible: to save energy, because I have excellent night vision, and because my eyes are very sensitive)on halfway through.

That night I had a nightmare. I can’t even remember what it was, but I decided “Supernatural” wasn’t worth it.

Over the next few months, I saw bits and snatches here and there. I caught half a scene of “Phantom Traveler” and “Skin,” I realized later.

Then I saw the promos for “The Journey Home” and chose to risk it.

I fell completely head over heels for Dean Winchester. I also turned the lamp on.

That night, I had no nightmares at all. Whether that had to do with my medication—I was sick—or the fact that Fate was telling me something, I don’t know.

I watched “Home” again on Sunday, “Asylum” on Tuesday then Sunday—no nightmares. Then I watched all the repeats they deigned to air—I couldn’t get enough of the boys and their dynamic and their plight.

I found Jensen Ackles to be—um, beautiful? Gorgeous? Perfection incarnate? Jared is no slouch himself, but I’m a DeanGirl all the way.

So, I imdb’d the boys and saw Jensen had a movie out, Devour. I rented it and now own it. I rented New York Minute, House of Wax, Flight of the Phoenix, and Cry_Wolf. I own only New York Minute and House of Wax, because the other two… maybe if it were Jensen in them.

I convinced my father to connect with blockbuster.com for “Dark Angel” and “Smallville” DVD’s.

When “Pollo Loco” arrived, I fell totally in love with Ben, Jensen’s character. I can’t really articulate why, darlings. He’s—completely charismatic and beautifully broken—just a lost little boy, searching for a reason in world that’s lost its mind.

I sent “Pollo Loco” back, still adoring Ben and loathing Max, wondering if Jensen could possibly do as well as Alec.

(I also loved NotDean from “Skin”. That be my favorite ep of SN, hands down. Jensen did an amazing job.)

Alec—love. Not as much as Ben; Alec and Dean were tied as my second favorite characters all the way until “Devil’s Trap”—but that comes later.

So my birthday rolls around. I ask for season 2 of DA. (By this time, “Pollo Loco” has made its way back to me. I’ve decided to keep it, indefinitely. Blockbuster.com says you can keep a disk as long as you want, no charge. I’d like to keep it forever.) I receive season 2.

And I start renting “Gilmore Girls” season 1. CuteSammyDean is adorable. I despise Rory as much as I despise Max and Lana. (Did I forget to mention I’m also renting SV season 4? Sorry.)

Jensen is undeniably my favorite of the two, but Jared is second on my list of actors.

I scoured blockbuster.com for anything that has either of them. Everything I could find I either now own it, have seen it, or it’s in my queue.

My PowerPoint “Jensen Ackles—with a dash of Jared Padalecki” is 174 slides long. SN fanfiction has taken over my creative abilities. I’ve told every member of my family I speak to about it.

It has completely taken over my life. And I do not understand.

What on Earth about this show compels me so? These two guys—why didn’t Xander/Nick Brenden or Chris/Drew Fuller do this to me? I had a crush on Orlando Bloom for almost five years and I own only four movies he’s in, three of them being LotR!

Nothing has ever made me go this far. I actually buy magazines for a single article, cut the article out, and recycle the rest. I’m planning on making a scrapbook out of all the pieces I’ve taken.

I’ve never been like this before, for anything.

(Oh, I forgot—during the NotJohn-torture-crush on his host’s son scene of “Devil’s Trap”, Dean leapt to tied with Ben as my all-time favorite character.)

 

 

Comments

[tigriswolf]

I'm glad you finlly watched the rest--truly is amazing, no?

And yes, they've got great chemistry.