screaming loud enough to turn back the wind

Title: Wipe your hand across your mouth, and laugh
Fandom: Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from TS Eliot
Warnings: talk of depression, violence, death, torture, brainwashing
Pairings: Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 390
Point of view: third
Prompt: any. any&any (or any/any). Milkvetch Your presence softens my pains


( None of them realize the ghost has been haunting Steve until they have the ghost-made-flesh standing beside him. )




Title: He is dust and I too shall die
Fandom: Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Gilgamesh
Warnings: character death, violence, torture
Pairings: implied Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 830
Point of view: third
Prompt: any, any, Black Mulberry Tree (I shall not survive you)


( <i>Oh, fuck</i>, Sam thinks, watching Steve’s mind and heart break at the exact same moment. )



Title: twenty words for darkness but none at all for light
Fandom: Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Matilyn Singer
Warnings: talk of violence/death/brainwashing/torture
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 425
Point of view: third
Prompt: any. any. Belvedere, I declare war against you


( He memorizes everything for later review and returns to the display on Barnes. Barnes, who Steve Rogers Captain America called friend and dropped his only weapon for. Barnes whose display calls him a hero. )



Title: the caged bird sings of freedom
Fandom: the backstory for an original character in a Marvel movie fic
Disclaimer: everyone’s mine; title from Maya Angelou
Warnings: gender identity issues
Pairings: pre-OC/OC
Wordcount:
Point of view: third
Prompt: Any, any, your boldness stands alone among the wreck (Mumford & Sons, "Little Lion Man"
Note: in this ‘verse

( Freddie's pretty sure he falls in love in the tenth grade, when the little white boy is introduced as Ron and refuses to look anyone in the eye. )



Title: firstborn
Fandom: Highlander
Disclaimer: not my characters
Warnings: post-apocalyptic
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 385
Point of view: third
Prompt: Highlander, any/any, admitting to being Immortal

( The end of the world happens on a Sunday. Methos is unsurprised. )

My aunt is having brain surgery today. As in, this exact moment in time -- the procedure started at 8:10, my time. Anyway, I don't believe that any god exists, much less that any god actually cares about us little people. But those of you who do -- if you could pray for my aunt, that'd be nice. She's awesome. She could use some help.

UPDATE: the surgery is a complete success and textbook case. *twirls*

Title: Not All
Written: November 2, 2014

So, I saw one too many posts on tumblr about men being willfully blind in not understanding women’s povs. Hence this.




( you say ‘not all’ and I hear ‘someone somewhere’ )

Title: we would have to keep this secret
Fandom: Avengers
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from “Secret” by Heart.
Warnings: modern AU; discussion of violence; implied torture
Pairings: Steve/Bucky, Clint/Natasha
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 1845
Point of view: third
Prompt: Author's Choice, any/any, Song: Secret by Heart

We lead two different lives/
Just like two lines that never cross/
And here we are together/
Standing closer than we ought...



Bucky turns up in Steve’s apartment not to long after Steve’s 26th birthday minus his left arm and with a high-tech prosthetic.

“Hey, Stevie,” he says, slumped in the armchair. “I need your help.”

Title: If I wrote you, you would know me, you would not write me again
Fandom: Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Dar Williams
Warnings: portrayal of a very unhealthy situation with maybe some implied dub-con; references to torture/brainwashing/dehumanization
Pairing: Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 400
Point of view: second
Prompt: any. any/any. telling a lie because the truth hurts more


( The truth is, you read a lot. You read things on the internet, a library's worth of books, and Steve's body language, Steve's face. You read his interactions with the others, who kept their distance from you in the beginning but have begun to treat you like you belong. Like you're Steve's. )


Untitled
Poem, gen, PG
Prompt: any, any, things I believed when I was five


( when I was five )



Title: untitled
Fandom: Highlander
Warnings: future!fic
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 305
Point of view: third
Prompt: any, any immortal, watching someone grow up


( He finds the child three months after he leaves the Highlander and all his judgments behind. )




Title: Even the gods were terrified at the flood
Fandom: Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Gilgamesh
Warnings: Talk of torture/brainwashing/dehumanization
Pairings: none
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 435
Point of view: third
Prompt: Any, any, when you are worthless they will not expect you to rise.



( It is a weapon – but it is not mindless. )




Title: better to avenge dear ones
Fandom: Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Beowulf
Warnings: talk of violence/torture/death/brainwashing
Pairings: Steve/Bucky
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 575
Point of view: third
Prompt: MCU, Bucky/Steve, just because he's Bucky Barnes again doesn't mean he regrets what he's done.


( There are things he never says, here in this shiny future. )

So, I think my "partner" and I have a fundamental disconnect.

I sent her what I had of Paper 2 because my advisor advised I give the group one more week and see if things improved. We planned to meet tomorrow after receiving feedback over the weekend.

I received feedback that amounted to "this is not ready; keep working and we'll meet later."

I have been working on this paper since early in the summer. I am sick of looking at it and I don't know how to move forward. Which I told her. Because my belief of writing groups is that they help you figure out how to say what you want to say and turn it into something cohesive and great. Right? That's what all the successful groups have been saying.

But. She replied that her thought was that the writing groups are for exchanging 'submission to class' level papers. I don't have that yet. I have until December 1 to get that, which the writing group is supposed to help me do. After her email, I started crying frustrated tears because I don't understand why this isn't working. I keep getting dinged in my history class for not writing scholarly enough, and then this shit in my writing class, and the TA in my anthropology class marking up my formal proposal for all sorts of grammar things when I'm a fucking editor and have never written anthropology stuff before.

Just. Fuck grad school. Fuck it all with fire ants and tabasco sauce.

Anyway. Fundamental disconnect. I've emailed the teacher asking for clarification on what we're supposed to be using the writing groups for.

It's just. I've written about 80000 words of fic since September started. And I've been working on this lit review sine June. It's not even 3000 words, and most of that comes from a paper I cannibalized for this purpose. I've been reading quantitative lit reviews for work for 3 years, and the one I'm writing is supposed to be qualitative. It's different. I need help because I just hate it, now.

I don't even know. Eighty thousands words of fanfic. And that's been easy, it's just flowed (mostly). So why is writing for school so hard? It hasn't always been.

Anyone remember the headache I've had since July last year? It had mostly gone away until this fucking semester. And I don't have dental insurance, and then I have two special needs' cats, and.

Being a grown up is awful and I miss kindergarten every day.

Anyway. Off to write an email explaining how I organized the lit review to see if my partner feels like helping me at all.

So, I've made a post at my tumblr asking for commentary requests, should anybody have one.

You know what might be the most difficult part of writing? Not using y'all as a plural for you. Like, seriously.

Also, tigremere has been researching our family history and apparently we're related to a few pirates, a horse thief, and the current Queen of England.

SHIT, SHIT, SHIT: I seem to have begun something that's trying to become epic and I have no idea what to do.

Realizing it would be epic ahead of time has worked out PRECISELY ONCE. How do writers do this?

Title: knock, breathe, shine, and seek to mend
Fandom: DCU animated/Avengers movieverse
Disclaimer: not my characters; title from Donne
Warnings: Timeline – begins a couple months after Cap2 and just before Under the Red Hood would’ve happened. Discussion of death/violence/torture – basically, everything Red Hood and Winter Soldier’s respective backstories has. Discussion of various criminal enterprises and either the taking over or dismantling thereof. Actual violence, though nothing too graphic.
Pairings: Jimmy/Jason; past-Steve/Bucky; past-Talia Al Ghul/Jason
Rating: PG
Wordcount: 22000+ (WIP)
Point of view: third
Prompt: various
Note: I got the mobsters and gangs from the DCU wiki. I know nothing about their canon storylines.
Another note: The only Robins I’m at all familiar with are Dick, Jason, and Tim so the rest won’t be in this ‘verse.


On his way to Gotham, Jason Todd runs into a trying-to-rediscover-himself-ex-Winter Soldier.